Habits I have picked up on the R train

1. Avoiding eye contact
2. Checking people out while refusing to make eye contact
3. Braiding the tassels in my scarf
4. Being afraid of men
5. Making myself smaller
6. Unbraiding the tassels in my scarf
7. Pretending to play with my phone
8. Contemplating the eminent collapse of the subway tunnels
9. Idly imaging scenarios where the train derails and crashes
10. Believing I'm too young to die
11. Listing things I'd like to do before I die
12. Reading
13. Deciphering the conductor's garbled speech
14. Re-braiding the tassels on my scarf
15. Fearing death
16. Fearing untimely death
17. Hoping for life
18. Wondering if that cute girl across the train is checking me out