For me

 A list of things I didn't say during zoom thanksgiving:

1. This year I'm grateful for a global pandemic

2. This year I’m grateful for the fall of capitalism and increasing and before this unparalleled wealth gap

3. This year I’m grateful for the black people being murdered en mass by the police

4. This year I’m grateful for the history of indigenous genocide

5. Let's not forget this is a holiday founded on the genocide and erasure of native peoples

6. Please stop asking Adam and Hannah when they're having children

7. Fuck you for getting married and having children

8. Fuck you for thinking I should get married and have children

9. Grief and anger weigh on my chest like a heavy blanket

10. Like snow and cold rain it drips down the inside of my rib cage

11. My belly is frozen earth and I wish you could see this and still be proud of me

12. I stack accomplishments like a jenga tower, shaping them around the empty places I don't want to be, hoping for your approval

13. I don't need your approval, but yes I have a fucking job after graduation and yes I fucking like it

14. I do not dream of labor, I dream of liberation

15. I do not dream of "going back to normal"

16. I dream of creating new stories, I dream of growing tomatoes out of frozen earth to feed my family and friends, I dream of pressing snowflakes in between my eyelashes and showing them to everyone I loved

17. At least at my job we talk about native people

18, And we don’t talk about if we're having children

19. Please. Help me imagine a better world then this.

20. We will do better