I love you

"I love you" The first time I said it I meant

I think you're a person who I could trust

A person who I would like to spend time around. A person who I could feel ok farting in front of.

"I love you" I said and I meant

Whenever "Fight song" comes on the radio I think of you

And whenever "Our song" comes on the radio I think of you and whenever "Starving" comes on the radio I think of you. 

And all music makes me think of you. 

"I love you" I say and I mean
I love talking to you, sneaking away from dinner as soon as I can and watching the summer sky grow dark as with your voice in my ear.
"I love you" I say and I mean

I'm glad you're here in this room, in this moment and your arms around me feel solid and real.

"I love you" I say and I mean 

Your voice at the other end of the phone call feels like the closest thing to home I've found in these last three months when not even the ground under my feet stays the same.

"I love you" and I mean

I'm kind of angry right now because you're not enough of a feminist but I want to work with you to find a way to make this relationship work.

"I love you" and I mean

I wish you weren't so hard on yourself,

"I love you" and I mean

I appreciate you driving me to Albany from Vermont when I'm too tired to stand or talk.

"I love you"

I like when you fuck me like that.

"I love you"

I like the way we spin worlds from words together; silly little fantasies to make each other smile. 

"I love you"

I'm glad you get along with my family,

"I love you"

I just drove seven hours to see you and you'd better fucking appreciate it,

"I love you"

It's hard for me to understand you sometimes,

"I love you"

I like your friends,

"I love you"

Please don't jump off any buildings,

"I love you"

Let's talk again soon, let's dance again soon, let's fuck again soon, let's be together again soon.

"I love you" I say and I mean

I didn't know my heart had the capacity to feel this big. There's a gaping cavern in my chest and it's filled with echoes of your name and coal that knows that soon it will turn into diamonds and it burns like it's on fire and it's the best thing that's happened to me yet.

"I love you" I say and I mean

How did I live so long without you?